Cowboy Boots.

I want metallic pink/purple/blue/sliver cowboy boots.

Is going to walk on water.

So the Yeah Yeah Yeahs, and totally Karen O. are completely amazing. I do believe. I need some new clothes and i am going to try to dress up more me fashion. I wish i could wear boots and panties everywhere i go. Black and dark purple/grey t-shirts with giant bows in my hair. Pearls to the floor. Neon tights. Lots of bracelets and huge giant earrings that only i can pull off. Lots of dark and neon tights always matching my eye shadow. Cold days I would wear socks instead of tights.

I think i am going to try to loose some major weight. Make my shorts super short and my t-shirts tight tight tight.

Yesterday i felt like i had a huge tummy, but today is another day in which i feel BEAUTIFUL! So i never know if the weight will change. Today i don't give a shit and i'm putting on my shorts and going to do my hair and make-up big.

I should do something fun today. 80's night would be fun except you all know why.

Yertesday News.

Man yesterday sucked.
The only thing that went right yesterday, was Ravel.

He is perfect.

Helpful hints.

I want shots and liquor mostly vodka. for my 21 BIRTHDAY!
However Gifts are super welcome!

Let's all be Rockstars!

Thinking about things.

So today, i look like this. However most days i wake up wanting to look like a movie star. I hope if somehow my art makes me bigger than Van Gogh, they flash pictures of me in the slide shows as some brilliant crazy beautiful artist instead of the chubby cheeked girl on the right. All freckled and wearing almost no make up at all. Which i mean is cute now and makes me look great today, however think of what the children of your children's children would think of my cute sweet face.
I don't want to have children sometimes because i fear what they will find out and learn about me. Not as an artist but just because i'm their mother.
I was boring as shit in high school. I never snuck out, did drugs, hung out with the wrong crowd, i did everything right. I was popular and yet i was still really lame.
I can't imagine the world our group is suppose to raise children in. Can you imagine reading your mother's blog from college. Mine didn't go to college but if i was my kid reading my blog.
I would worry and think my mother was a complete freak for painting asses, for not even dealing with these lame roommates for eating all her butter, for dating that weird kid she writes about in here. My blog makes Ravel sound kind of lame. But i am more liking to write about bad things then to talk for hours in this thing about everything wonderful Ravel does. I talk about that too much to people in person.
I just can believe when someone your age gets married. I know i can almost buy vodka and drink in bars, I live on my own and get tattoos. I'm almost out of college and i'm going to get a real career job soon, but i just can't stop being shocked when someone our age gets married.
Everyone on tv is my age and somehow i still feel like a child.
Can you believe we live in a day and age where everyone is 18-24 on reality tv. Everyone on tv is my age.
Before you know it, you'll be past out invites to weddings and baby showers, funerals, and graduations. We'll all grow up and our hair will grow out.
If i am lucky kids in college will see my face in a slide show and think i'm not as lame as i really am.

friends

So i love my friends. I always have great friends. All my friends are best friends, cause all my friends are the best.

Ice creams and cliffs

I want chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. Soft and kind of warm, the ready to eat kind. I am beginning to believe the group of morons i live with now will never figure it out. I am going to have to keep my cold food at ravels and only eat microwaveable none refrigerated foods here. They ate all my butter. The one that said LAURA'S ONLY FUCKERS on the top. Which maybe me writing "fuckers" on the top made it asking for it. But still i hate these stupid fucking bitches.
Sometimes i really do think they do it on purpose. It's like they want me to break their dishes and pour soap down the sink. spill out their oil and report the dog.
I wish her boyfriend would fucking move out. He is a real winner like there never was one. He decided fuck school i hate this shit. So he stole his car for money to live off of for a year which is more than a year by now. So he is driving her car, which he got into a wreak and gave a bad number to the victim and run out on paying for it. He uses all the other food/ dishes in the house. He lives here without paying rent. He is a total asshole of a nice guy guy. I hate them more than plain assholes. Ones that pretend they are nice guys. Eats my food, steals everything and i hate them all really.
If Ravel dropped out of school, he would drop into the single world. I'm not paying for some slacker asshole.

I am going to be a total pain in the ass until they all leave. I am taking the T.V. tonight and i am taking the rest of my things from the living room that doesn't need to be cold.

I hope they all move out and drive over a cliff soon.